today is christmas! hmmm. christmas eve spent at a chalet! wit not much beer! fun etc! it isnt a pleasant week for me either! so mani ting occur tis week. too much problem at a time! was tryin my best to entertain my gf! haha. sound wierd! i tink thr is a problem in between us! a knot! haiz. i was spentin my holiday lifelessly. i didnt party didnt reali hav fun. didnt relax myself. i feel like goin to sentosa! sit by e beach. hmmmm. everywhere in singapore is so crowned. aint any space for me to breath! i dono wat am i doin now! after leavin sec sch. life is like so slack. i cant see any goals. hehe. will power not thr? hehe. or somethin else! gei wo yi shou ge de shi jian! o oh! now it 545am. i oso dono whr am i goin later! suppose to go out wit mummy. seem like it goin to b spenting my christmas alone! haha. last time single still got shawn n group of brother. now leh. seem like everyone is separatin. wtf. wat had happen! fuck man. argh. where is e gym comin up!? i tink im goin to use tat place to isolate myself from the world! a place i can b alone! no stress! nobody to shout at u! punchin bag wont utter a single word! haha. goin crazy here. sob sob. i feel so fuck up rite now! argh!